Will I be that mom who when is asked, "Oh, you breastfed?! For how long?" Then has to answer, "Oh just 48 months!!" lol
Who knew someone like me, who can spend two hours at the gym, who often stands to watch TV shows (so that I can do 4 other things at the same time), and who can barely sit still to go to the bathroom would LOVE SOOOOO much just sitting in a quiet, dark room, rocking away with NOT one worry or thought of anything other than my sweet little baby girl!!
Tonight, Avery actually allowed me to rock and nurse her to sleep and I loved it!! Yes, "allowed" me. I say that because I have always scheduled Avery's feeding time for as soon as she wakes. This was to help teach her to fall asleep on her own, without being nursed, before all naps and bedtime........ To "self-soothe" herself. I do not regret my choice of the eat, play, sleep pattern for Avery but, I can definitely now see why mothers have a hard time weaning those babies who nurse themselves to sleep. It is very easy to love!
Breastfeeding and I had a love/hate relationship not too long ago. It was NOT easy being a first-time mom and NOT having a clue what to do with this new little baby while also trying to figure out HOW to breastfeed!!!!!! In the beginning, I was given a chart (from the hospital) to document everything....well, my TYPE A personality took it to the EXTREME!!! You can't give me a piece of paper and ask me to document/write anything without going way over the top, ask my husband! So, there I was studying the clock and timing Avery's every feed, poop, pee, and left or right starting side. I was so wrapped up in the clock and how long she was eating that I forgot to SLOW DOWN and realize Avery was not just a little doll needing to be fed "AT LEAST every 3 hours". So, here I am, starting to wish I had those first few months back.
Now, nearly 4 months later I am starting to wonder "so, will I be that mother.....?" I know that if you would have asked me after 3 weeks, 5 weeks, 8 weeks, and even 10 weeks on some days just how long I would keep nursing...... and I might have said "today will be my last day" But, the truth is Avery may have to wean herself when she is ready....cause I may never make her!!!! :0) It has been A HUGE lifestyle change for me and Chad but we both feel for now, it is whats best for little Miss Avery.
We love you Avery Grace!!!!
